Talking about my childhood, my mother often told me that I had moments where I became almost depressed and uttered a desire to vanish and fade away. I always imagined t his by simply falling into the ocean and being carried away by the waves or dissolving into the clouds. These moments of darkness accompanied me ever since and similiar to the topic of Contrition are often in moments of regret and failure.
I realized though, that it is essential to not just lock out any bad emotion and becoming cold as ice. This may work for the moment but someday these memories will come back and knock you off your feet even worse. I try to be more emotional if possible but also accept moments of darkness, as they are part of our lives the same way moments of light are.
lyrics
Lyrics:
Push it further
Push it farther
Out of mind
Behind the border
Raise the wall
Erase the cancer
Leave behind
And mask the answer
Here I stand, surrounded by the ocean
(unleashing what is left of me)
Embrace this life and let me drift apart
(devoured by infinity)
I just want to fade away into the endless
A shadow crawls through me smothering my light
Please just let me fade away out of this prison of thought
In my memory
Grows the enemy
For suppression
Is regression
Here I stand, surrounded by the ocean
(embracingwhat is left of me)
Rejoicing life before I fall apart
(devoured by infinity)
The last project from the late Jessi Zazu of Those Darlins is fiery, bright rock and roll that's an affirmation of music and life. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 24, 2024